About 7 days ago, I was part of a group who committed to 7 days of midnight prayer. We would wake up at 00:00 and pray until 01:00, and those who wanted to, even longer.
On my third night of prayer I was up till 03:00. During that time I experienced deliverance and received visions. I want to share one of the visions I had that night. The vision was in 3 parts. I will focus on mostly part three.
In part three I was walking in a field next to Jesus. There was so much joy in my heart, which I can only describe as a joy that only a child knows. It felt like I had been wiped clean: as if had never known a heartbreak, had never experienced financial stress or work stress. I did not have any idea about the worries that one accumulates as one grows up in this world. I just felt such freedom.
We came across a tree and there were many children playing in the branches of the tree. The were hanging upside down from the branches, chasing each other around the tree trunk and climbing all over the show. As soon as we came closer, many of the children ran to Jesus and surrounded Him. Some jumped in His arms, others clung to Him around His legs. It was like the way children run to their mother when she comes home from work. I saw Jesus laughing and being cheerful with the children.
Some children went back to play in the tree. It was a huge tree that really reached up towards the sky. The trunk and branches were very thick. I started to climb up the tree. It was pretty easy. I was able to jump from one branch to a higher branch without much effort. Eventually I reached the top. I stared down and I could see how pretty high up I was. The ground seemed so far away. But I had no fear, I knew that I was in a safe place, that no harm could befall me here. So I just jumped! Of course I landed on my two feet, safe and sound.
Then Jesus and I started walking away from that place. I asked Him, “Jesus, who were all those children back there?”
He answered me, “Those are the ones who have no fathers, either physically or emotionally. I have adopted them into My family. They are now part of My family tree”
I thought a little bit about what He had said. I realised that the children back there were actually adults and only appeared as children, just like me. Then I understood something and I asked Jesus, “Do you mean like me? My father was also not emotionally available for me.”
“Yes,” He replied.
We kept on walking, and as we walked I pondered the things I had just seen and the things we had just talked about.
- Inattention and preoccupation
- Gross immorality
- Abusing or misusing children
The good news though is that when we become saved, we are adopted into God’s family. The Holy Spirit who lives inside of us testifies that we are the children of God. We become born again into a new family line that goes all the way to God himself. God is our father. Isn’t that mind-blowing when you consider it! Through prayer and by walking close with Him, we can develop a very intimate relationship with Him, unlike any that we would have with an earthly father. This is supernatural restoration of the absent father figure.
John 12-13 NKJV
12 But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: 13 who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.
Romans 8:17 (NIV)
15 For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, “Abba, Father.” 16 The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, 17 and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together.
Psalm 68: 5 (NKJV)
5 A father of the fatherless, a defender of widows,
Is God in His holy habitation.
1 John 3: 1-3 (NKJV)
3 Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God![a] Therefore the world does not know us,[b] because it did not know Him. 2 Beloved, now we are children of God; and it has not yet been revealed what we shall be, but we know that when He is revealed, we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him as He is. 3 And everyone who has this hope in Him purifies himself, just as He is pure.
Psalm 27: 10 (NKJV)
10 When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the Lord will take care of me.
I grew up in a conservative family where there is a hierarchy: the father right at the top, then the mother and then the children. Because my father was more of an authority figure who commanded our respect, it was very difficult for me to have an emotional relationship with him. I can deal with it now as an adult, but as a child you do not process these things psychologically the way an adult does. There was a side of my father that I need very much growing up, which I did not have although I lived with him.
My two earliest memories of my father were when he was in his car out in the yard just about to drive to work. I remember running from the garage and planting a big fat kiss on his lips. The other memory was when he once threw me into the air. As a child, you do not fear falling down, because you have so much trust that your daddy is going to catch you. This is the kind of assurance I had when I jumped down from that huge tree in my vision. I felt safe.
There are unfortunately not many memories from my early childhood like these. I do wish there had been more. I do love my father, and I know he loves me, he was just not very good at expressing it verbally and physically. Often it is the case that such parents were themselves emotionally abandoned from their own parents, and so these things travel down the generational line. It is important to seek healing for emotional abandonment or fatherlessness, so that you can be healthy emotionally and psychologically. The devil comes around and will use our hurts and traumas against us. It is so important to internalise how much God really loves us. Reading the book of Psalms can support this process.
I do believe though that in this vision Jesus delivered me from a spirit of fatherlessness.
At the bottom of this post I will post some links for you to read more about the spirit of fatherlessness. This spirit can often be found together with the spirit of rejection, depression, suicide etc. If this issue personally relates to you, I would encourage you to do more of your own research on the topic and perhaps seek counselling, healing and deliverance. My friend told me a story about a woman she knows who was sexually abused by her father as a young girl. Her father was later imprisoned for something else. This amazing woman, through Christ, learnt to forgive her father and now even visits him in prison. We forgive in order to set ourselves free from the hurt and the pain of fatherlessness. Forgivess is vital for healing. I carried this pain hidden subconsciously for man years, and it was just a yoke upon me. I rejoice and praise God because he has set me free.